Rejection after rejection after rejection is starting to make me feel like I'm dangling from a trig on an ocean-side cliff at high tide surrounded by ravenous sharks, and now there are things happening in my life that I know I shouldn't feel negativity towards, but I can't seem to shake these feelings. Maybe I'm a bad person for feeling these things. Or maybe I dwell too much on the pain of the past. Or maybe even, I'm just not worth it... I don't really know... I just hope that a bright side comes soon.
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It's been horribly hectic the past few days! The weather is hot and humid and honestly, there's more steam than oxygen outside. And not a lot has been getting done outside the house due to that, and the fact that I've been helping my mother walk around because she has a bad case of gout in her foot. Her driving foot, no less, so she can't go anywhere. The Niece started school and we're having to have different people bring me around to pick her up due to still no working vehicle! Which has me cursing under my breath throughout the day. On the bright side, Sunday nights have become our Wii nights, so there's laughs between the stress. I still have no agent and honestly, I'm beginning to lose hope. And to top this all off, I have to go to court as a witness for a child safety case at early-in-the-frigging-morning-o'clock. I'm also trying to keep up with my bearded dragon, Tarot's needs, such as fresh greens, fruit, and a steady supply of live and freeze-dried bugs. She's absolutely gorgeous and getting more gold every time she sheds with a brighter orange around her ears.
Dang, am I tired! We had a surprise party for my eldest sister today and it was wonderful and she was totally surprised and happy with it. My mother and I even baked a cake out of the Monster High skullette logo. It was really fun to cut the 3D Skullette out and onto the platform. I think we did an amazing job and I was almost too sad to eat it! But, alas, every masterpiece has its end somewhere.
I've finally gotten back fully into the groove of writing my book now that I'm not sick anymore and whenever I take a break, I've been reading a book my sister (let's call her Red) had suggested to me a couple months back. Last night, however, I made a new tank screen to fit a bigger tank for a lizard that belongs to another one of my sisters (and call her Sass). And today I made the base for my bearded dragon, Tarot's screen and will finish it hopefully later today, but I'll have no help as it is Red's birthday today, so Sass and one of their friends took Red out for the night. And on another note, my mother and I recently found out that her biological father passed away in March. Neither of us know much about him, but I'm hoping for some sort of information. Recently we've been making a family tree on Ancestry.com and found a lot of family members. My mother found out she had an aunt that is still living, too. I wish them all the best. Have a Wicked weekend! Okay, so I have another vehicle down for the count now. I'm starting to think it's Murphy's gas where I live because my sister came home with stories of friends that don't have working vehicles after getting gas either. I smell a lot of law suites. On another note, I'm getting better and I'm beginning to get back to work. Now the only question is whether or not I should even attempt to query any more agents this weekend. Do agents even care about the work anymore? Or just carbon copies of what's overly popular because they think it'll sell the best? I'm sorry, but trends had to be created before they became popular. Just
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